Evelyn’s Testimony by Evelyn Munyiva

Most testimonies would go something like: “Before I got saved I used to be a drunkard, Used to love the ladies or guys…” (whichever applies) and stuff like that, but not mine.

I was born into a Christian family and for a long time I thought I was saved, until I answered an alter call when I really understood what salvation is. But it wasn’t easy, because I used to want to have a testimony that sounded like everybody else’s.

I used to ask God, “so what exactly did you save me from?”

I thought that I was pretty clean compared to others, but I realised that God was saving me from a lot worse than anybody else. One thing being “godly” – I had started taking for granted why Christ died on the cross. I realised that I was taking advantage of God’s grace and I was judging others, thinking that I was holier than them. That realization broke down any walls of pride and self-exaltation that I had put up. I started to see that God didn’t love me more than the rest of the people.

But then I hit another hurdle. I started thinking that since I hadn’t been a murderer or thief or anything that would be considered ‘big sin’ to be saved from… then maybe God loved me less. I started to struggle with low or non-existent self-esteem. And through that I felt the need to go into the world so that I could come back and get saved all over again.

Thank God for the support system that I had in church and also the fact that what I was trying to go do was extremely revolting to me. I opened my eyes before it was too late. God has been my constant friend and He has continually affirmed His love for me. And now I can hold my head up high because nobody is a nobody. God doesn’t make mistakes. Now my deepest conviction is to reach out to people who feel small, not good enough or who think they can’t amount to anything. God saved me from that pit of self-destruction so I can show others that they can hold their heads up high too. Yeah, everybody has one or two insecurities about themselves but not dwelling on them is the key, looking above for help. Our shortcomings alow for God to get all the glory.

I pray that God may use me to touch someone’s life as He did mine and as He is still doing, because I am not perfect. We are precious in God’s sight, His jewels, His own possession. Even if nobody else ever wants me, I know God will never leave me.

I am His and He is mine.